have I ever felt so alone and unsocial as when I started my ‘career’ going? and yet … I think this loneliness may only exist in contrast to my expectation of celebrity – that of many people ‘loving’ you. but this ‘you’ is an image, and you are hidden behind / indebted to this image. you cannot interact with anyone as a celebrity except via your image.
if you have a lot of time/money/security then an abstract, ambiguous practice might provide the richest work. this approach keeps patterns in mind but delays their formation, or develops short term patterns without any desire to reuse them.
if you have little time/money/security it will be more difficult to picture this overall unformed pattern, to keep track of these abstract relationships. any patterns that emerge might not be so readily thrown away, since they provide links to stable, mutable, mnemonic structures.